SWOON

I am Dave, I am dope, nobody does it better than me.

in the future

1. Dear Daniel, I love you man


2. if the universe was the floor I'm standing on, our lives wouldn't be a speck of dust...My life is nothing more than the motion set by mother, that was set by her mother, and her mother, and her mother.

3. A girl named Naomi gives me butterflies.

YOU!

I waited for you for too long man, since we were kids...and it's already done.

REAL HEARTBREAK

Its been over a year since my last day, but I haven't forgotten what it's like. 3 years, 4 bikes, 1 girlfriend, 5 apartments 6 semesters, 8 races, 2 cities, 2 companies, 4 dispatchers. Where did it start?

It's 6:30 AM in the morning and my radio is going off, you tell me to pick up 30 packages at the base, you move to the country and get married as I jam the specials in my bag. At the base you are filling out forms, It's always you and me in the morning. You say absolutely nothing to me until you leave, Your name is Hugo.

It's 7:00 AM now, I visit you at the giftshop. My radio doesn't work at the hotel so I make it quick.A kiss, fingers knotted, a smile and then I disappear....and eventually you do to.

8:00 AM, and the winds are destroying my hands. Its always the fingers that go first, those goddamn fingers. I could hardly read my manifests....or breathe.

8:30 AM I run up the stairs, you never asked me for my ID, but I always give it to you. I catch my breath at your desk, you start to call me Teddybear, and do so for the next 3 years.

9:00 AM and Lower Wacker drive is always faster than any route going east to michigan ave. I learned that today, 2 weeks in.

10:00 AM now, and the day is slow, I'm at the park watching the girls.

10:30 AM You are from Boston looking for a job. I tell you to meet me tonight at a halloween party. You find your husband, your job, your friends, and you always tell me it was cuz you met me that day. Maybe.

11:00 AM, We're hanging out at the Thompson center and everyone is getting high.

Noon, I'm lying on Clark bridge just north of Wacker. I was going south and my wheels went out...there seems to be a grapefruit on my knee.

1:00 PM and the rain won't stop, there's 12 packages in my bag that are all soaking wet, I could hardly give a fuck and I am one step away from calling the day.

1:30 PM I am in bed, with you. You are holding on to a bag of mush, and my limbs are wrapped around you. Fragile isn't the right word. I called in and told Bob my tank was empty.

2:00 PM and I am working on a set all the way up to Evanston.

2:30 PM is when I hear you call my name in City Hall. We smile and reminsce of grammar school. I wanted you since we were kids....I waited on you for 20 years and I eventually get you, even if its for a minute and in a bar drunk.

3:00 PM I get a phone call telling me Ryan is gone, he was run over by a truck on clark street...we were getting high 3 days earlier.

3:30 PM and there is nothing better to do than hang out at the relay. It is here where I appreciate black culture.

4:00 PM and its damn hot. I have run off 50 packages and made 200 dollars. I radio in clean at the Thompson center. "5-0 you have had one helluva day, you want to go for the record, or you gonna call it in early? its up to you kid".

4:30 PM My tears are frozen to my face.

5:00 PM I am at the base waiting for you to get in, to turn your manifests. We ride home to the apartment, west....Yeah, pretty much into the sunset.

FROM MY OLD DISPATCHER'S BLOG THE DAY I QUIT...

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

fast...very fast...

man...the days have been super slow. don't know what to say...word is that it's just slow everywhere. no company is really popping more than any other. it's just not a good time to be a messenger. no one knows why it's just the way the industry is right now. as 6450 put it...maybe its the end of this sillyness. we lost 5-0 today because of the slow days. five-o will be missed...the man is/was a rockstar out there. very fast, never said no, just got the work done. as much as im gonna miss the kid i am also glad he's leaving...why? well, he, hopefully, will find a job that'll pay him more money in order to survive...also, his departure means more work to spread love with...i hope.

The big apple

work
friends
family
art
music
sleep



I have to remove one of the following off my daily routine list. I don't have time for it all, and honestly, I am in that 18 hours straight mode.

Nyc November 6. This will be a real stretch but I will make it.

BLASTIN FROM THE BEFORES

From Andrea (the prettiest pick me-up Gal)

hello. do not apologize for leaving me a wonderful napkin artwork. it was a very nice thing to do and i kept it in my knapsack (still). i honestly had no idea who left it! it was the pick me up mystery!!!

see you soon.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: DAVIDBELTRAN
Date: Dec 2, 2008 2:48 AM


about being a creep and leaving napkin art fwd: to you. I should have known you were taken!

that is all, I'd say it to your face but I'm beat red about it.

not just any girls...all of them

Sometimes right before I sleep I think to myself "holy shit, a couple million people are sleeping at the same time, and I'm about to join them" our souls are connected... I saw your phone call before it rang. (humming)....

All I did was tell you how much I liked you and all you did was tell me how much another girl liked me, yet you kissed me....I don't get it.